Biggest win ever , then subsequent loss of it actually saved my life.

[maths79]

Hi all , you would know me in the chat as mathsinminuetes. I would like to share this story with you all if I may.

So basically  I have had a gambling problem for many many years, then FOBTS came and it got worse, then the introduction to online slots made it even worse..

I have been in isolation etc for 7 weeks now, in the first  week i was feeling ill, kept ignoring it, kept getting gradually worse etc ignored it, then started distracting myself with gambling, THIS IS 100% true what I am about to say, I deposited some money and won £1000 i then went on a mad run and won a total of £21,000 I withdrew £18.000 and left £3000 online, but still breathing was getting worse ,could not sleep etc, but kept ignoring it ,just kept thinking about gambling.

Then after not being able to sleep /breathe very well decided to keep gambling, lost the £3000, then ,well i lost control reversed the £18,000 and lost it all on roulette doing £980 spins.

The next day i felt awful physically and mentally. So i put all my energy into finding out what was triggering me being ill, I got to the point that my breathing was so difficult that I thought that was it , funny actually that was the night Scotty was doing the first Euros second round, was just laying there listening and trying to smile, So Scotty thank you so much for that lol. Next day I coughed up some blood, and was going to call an ambulance,but figured it might not that bad, and plus there are people who were a lot more in need than me.

So i spent the next few days researching, finding links between asthma and acid reflex, asthma and stress, acid and stress etc, I managed to get some inhalers and loads of anti acid liquid. I then completely shifted my habits, I have stopped eating sugar, all fizzy drinks ,i am eating 3 times a day plus 2 healthy snacks, i am working out each day, I built a home gym using scaffolding poles etc, and I have learnt how to meditate. 

I honestly feel completely different now as a person, confident ,focused, calm, i am still very unfit its going to take a while for cardio to improve etc, but i guess what i am saying is , if i had not lost that money, i would have continued everyday ignoring how i was feeling, and just obsessing over gambling,and I would have become so ill and possibly died .

There is such a long way to go in terms of gambling recovery, it has changed me as a person in the worst possible ways, as a gambler you become a very good liar, you can find ways of getting money to gamble , even if it means borrowing money, or selling things you own.

Also I managed to pull my head together and finish this university year with a first, so happy days, I use gamstop  now ,but after going all through that i feel no urges to gamble. I still watch the streams but if i am perfectly honest ,just for the banter, laughs and chat its a really nice community of people.

sorry for the long post 

Kind regards Robert 

[Fruity Scotty]

wow, that was quite an emotional reed mate, im glad you have finally got yourself sorted. remember we are here to chat if you ever need to vent etc. keep up the fitness work as ive found myself that helps relax the mind a lot.

[maths79]

Hey Scotty thank you mate, taking everyday as it comes, and I know fitness will be hard ,sciatica etc, but if i am consistent it will come.I also sent you a message on here just to say thanks for everything and helping me through.

All the Best 

[FruitySlots]

Amazing to hear how you overcame such troubles.

You did the right thing getting on gamstop and focusing on getting better.

I would suggest you still see a doctor though. If you coughed up blood you want to get that checked and not self diagnosed.

Stay strong and always reach out to us if you need to chat!